Day 05 – A time you thought about ending your own life
Personally, I’m not really good on the subject of suicide. I’ve never attempted it, but I thought about it.
There were periods in my life when I felt like my existence meant little to nothing to those around me. I would think that if I were to go, no one would miss me. I didn’t find love where I wanted to, so I thought it wasn’t for me and ultimately, that this life wasn’t either.
With my fascination with ropes and knots, I would have probably hung myself. I found something to ground me and that was academia. I figured that I would put all of my focus and energy into that. The periods when I felt the worst are where you will find some of my best writing. That was another outlet that I used.
If anyone is feeling like they don’t matter. Trust me. You do. Just hold on and keep holding on. Someone loves you.