Shattered Gold
You hear the laughs
See the smiles
You get envious of it
You crave it for yourself
But do you know how much work
It took to get them there?
Do you know how many times
She gets on his nerves?
How many times he makes her mad?
They deserve to be happy
Because no matter what
They fight for their love
On and off the screen
All his life
My brother was asked
Why he couldn’t be like me
But all I wanted
Was for him to be
His own person
On his wedding day
All I could say
Was that it was my turn
To follow in his footsteps
The best days of your life
Have yet to come
Hold on
Don’t rush things
Things will get better
You just need to be patient
I knew it from the beginning
That I would love her
I could see myself falling
Stepping outside myself
I observed my smile
When I read her texts
Saw the concern in my eyes
When she was troubled
I loved her
For so long in secret
Now I get to love her
The way she needs it
If you can’t take it
When things go wrong
Even when out of your hands
Out of everyone’s hands
Then you only bring more negative
Forcing the right thing to happen
Leads to mistakes
And puts unwanted pressure
On those around you
How can we make the promise
Of forever
In a world
Where everything
Is only temporary
Usually when love fails
Forever isn’t really
All that long
Believe in yourself
Because you can’t always
Rely on others
To believe in you
Love yourself
Because only you
Know the love you deserve
Love filled her body
And the tears started to flow
A love this strong
Overwhelms
So beautiful
That crying is the only way to speak
Tears that ask how love could be
So much
Tears that say
I love you so much
They were once like me
Caring and loving and always there
Then they stopped
Leaving you in a place of
Unrequited love and affection
So you had to change the way you did things
Locking it all away to avoid pain
Never wanting to be hurt again
Now with new love in your life
Your expectations are for
A repeat of the past
At least your actions say so
So you’ve already fast forwarded
To the part where you need not show affection
Now I stand here with all the extra
Looking into cold eyes
That feel a pain that I did not inflict
A question plagues my mind
If you could change for the worst
To please them
Only for them to walk away
Why can’t you change for the better
For someone that you know will stay?
The answer lies with me though
Because they forced you to be different
From the person that you were
And I
Would never force you
To be anyone who
You didn’t want to
Or couldn’t be
So I will suffer
Until you realize
That you can’t keep blaming the past
You are in control of your actions
You decide whether we crumble
Or whether we will last
