Shattered Gold
Look at you
Yes you
Self proclaimed savior of hearts
Housing one more broken than most
Who saves you?
Who fights your demons?
No one
You hide everything from everyone
And those who see and try to help
You chase away
Still an emotional masochist
After all these years
All my life I’ve learned
That there is no good karma
Good deeds reaped
Unsatisfactory results
People ran away
Because I was too nice
There’s no way someone
Could be so good a person
It’s impossible…
But what does that
Make me…
With you I feel safe
Protected from it all
I jump with no care
I know you’ll never
Just let me fall
I can come to you
Because you will look after me
There’s few places like this
Where I can be free to be me
Fickle fickle creatures
Dying for attention
Throwing away what they have
When they feel they can get more
Giving up anything
For something less sure
Greedy
Hypocrites
Doing harm to those
They swear show no care
Turning their backs
On the ones truly there
Gotta accept it
Life was never fair
I presented myself
Showed that I belonged
I thought I was already in
But I still find myself
Screaming
Shouting
At glass walls I can’t seem to climb
Looking for the password
That I’ll never find
Open sesame won’t do
I guess I’ll never get through
A hero that is unwanted
Is simply a vigilante
Fighting crimes
Seeking justice
When all along
Victims just want
To be left alone
She gives and gives
For what?
Drained near the point
Of no return
But
Who saves her when she needs it?
Who extends an arm to pull up
Back to the top?
Who makes her pain stop?
No one
I refuse to stand by
And do nothing
As her world faded to black
I will give all of me
Down to the skin off my back
Just to make her whole again
How do I get it so wrong
No matter what I do
Why do the voices
Keep telling me I’ll hurt you
Maybe I just need to comply
Duct tape my mouth shut
And tie my hands behind my back
Throw away everything
To keep things kosher
All the stress
Will be over
I just need to accept that I’m a monster
Causing terror
Stomping around
Destroying everything that I touch
That’s what the people below me see
I’m just trying to understand me
So I’m curious about things
I’m trying to figure it all out
It’s not my fault that when I sneeze
Fire comes out my snout
I’m sorry for the calamity
I’ll head back into the sea
My love penetrates
Down to the core
It fills you to the brim
Till you can’t take anymore
I’ve been called toxic
Because of the side effects it brings
It causes people
To do some crazy things
I try to control it
Because if I let it run free
The power of my love
Will end up destroying me
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