I wrote something for you

That you’ll never read

Because sending it isn’t me

That’s not who I am

But I’m being pushed to the darkness 

Where certain actions become so easy

I won’t be there one to blame 

When the beast comes out 

That no one can tame

This Time. That Time.

There is…

Nothing to do

All this free time spent up in my room

For some reason time doesn’t fly by when you’re alone

The sands of time have slowed….down

These are the times I wish I had a girl

To just hold on to, to chill if you will

Chicks always say that they want time

We’ll time is something that I got

They can find their way to my spot

All I have is time

Any kind that you want

The “turn my phone off because it’s all about you” time.

That cherished “me and you” time

Or how about the

“You guys go ahead

I’m gonna be with my girl tonight” time?

These are the times I wish I had a girl

Then this time would not have felt wasted

No one to hold on to and just enjoy that

Feeling that you get when you see

They fit into your arms so perfectly

Listening to music that doesn’t help the mood

There’s no way a single person can enjoy food

I should be feeding her

While she feeds me

You feel me?

But nah…

All I got is that “sitting alone

Thinking about her” time

The “wishing she were here

Or that I was there” time

Wanting a bit of her time

Add it to my time

Make it our time

Time with her would be time not wanted back

I know that

These are the times I wish I had a girl

When I have all the time…

To make her my world…

I Am Tired

I Am Tired

I’m tired of seeing people holding hands
Because I don’t understand
Why I have to be a single man
When all women say to me is
You’re so adorable
But I can’t be with you
You would make a good boyfriend
But I can’t be with you
You would make any girl happy
If I am so perfect
Then why am I alone
Why must I end each day
In an empty home
When there are guys who are not as good
Getting more girls than they could
Ever treat right
It’s not right
Why must I be the one
Who is alone at night?
With no one to hold
In the sheets
Just playing with the folds

I Am Tired

I’m tired of seeing people
With their phones glued to their ears
People giggling together everywhere
I try to act like I don’t care
But it gets to me
That is all I see
He places a kiss on her cheek
As together they eat
Oh how sweet
Using one straw
To drink a milkshake
Fighting over the last fry
If only I could be that guy
But no
Life won’t allow things to be so
I eat in the table in the corner
By myself
I walk to class everyday
By myself
I look up at the full moon
By myself
And I must realize that this is the way it will be
For a while now it has just been me

I Am Tired

I am tired of lying in bed
And praying that the phone rings
Or that a text comes in
Sitting in the darkness of my room
This wont work
Man, I wish I had homework
Because it’s the only thing that can occupy my mind
When I find
That I start tripping
Reality starts to fade and I start slipping
Thinking of things not worth thinking of in the first place
Like why do good guys finish last in this race?
Can you see the scars of love on my face?
Can you see the past in my eyes?
Having to give up the girls I wanted
To these unworthy guys
They couldn’t make them smile
Like I would
They won’t do almost anything
Like I would
They can’t make them feel like the only girl in the world
Like I would

I Am Tired

I’m tired of cupid’s arrows
Because they have no eyes to see
That I do not want to be
Head over heels
Does cupid know how it feels?
To be in love with someone
He is not the one with the broken heart
He is not the one who can’t sleep at night
He won’t be there to tell me it’s alright
So why does he shoot me
Why is it that we cannot control who we fall for?
If I could I would fall no more
I’m begging…
My poor knees
I fell so much that the ground knows me by name
It’s such a shame
When will I win…this love game

I Am Tired


Eternal Anguish


How could this happen to me?

Fallen victim once again.

I swore it would never come to this.

I remember the day when

I was down on my knees,

Begging for a release.

Insomnia has become an unwanted friend:

There for me when all are asleep.

We became close easily,

Now a friend I hate to keep.

My head hurts…

Thoughts ringing through.

I don’t know what to do.

My voice is hoarse and ready to leave,

Surprised I can still shout.

Even if it were to go,

It’s something I can do without.

So I open my mouth

And let my heart scream:

It was becoming too much for the poor guy to endure.

Broke the down the lacrimal dams,

Let the tears leak onto the floor.

Their paths down my face

Are still clearly traced,

And their origins…

Just empty space.

My fists are clenched so tightly

That the flow of blood has almost stopped,

But through it all,

Not once has my pen dropped:

Bleeding every emotion that I feel

Onto these lines of these pages,

As I go through these stages

Of this thing called love.

In my chest it seems

That something is missing,


Faint beat.

I’ve lost the feeling in my feet,

Knees once again to the floor,

Asking for nothing more

Than to not be awake.

How much more of this

Will I have to take?

I don’t want to live

With this constant