30 Day Challenge – Day 22

Day 22 – How have you changed in the last two years

Honestly, I think I’m still the person that I was two years ago. Although with that being said, my life is completely different now.

Imagine moving on from a completely toxic relationship to one where you never get to feel used or hurt. I argue less than I did two years ago. I laugh more than I did two years ago.

Sometimes we change, not because we want to, but because we’re allowed a chance to be who we were always meant to be. When it’s for the better, hold onto it tightly. Life will feel empty without that catalyst.

30 Day Challenge – Day 21

Day 21 – One of your favorite shows – and why

This is going to be hard because I have about 70 shows that I watch at one point or another.

I think that my favorite show would have to be The Flash because at one point he was my favorite super hero. The show has the right amount of drama, action, and suspense. It’s an all around good show. I never miss an episode and always look out for the next one.

30 Day Challenge – Day 19

Day 19 – Discuss your views on divorce

Marriage is sacred.

I believe that divorce should be the last resort unless there’s abuse or infidelity. In those two cases, it’s clear that one person isn’t holding up their end of the deal.

Sometimes though, the love can also fade and people get tired of one another. Irreconcilable differences. If you no longer love one another, it’s ok to walk away. It’s often the case that those two people are better off as friends.

Marry the person you truly love. The one who makes you fall every day. Then, you’ll never have to worry about divorce.

Divorce hurts all involved in different ways, especially the children. That event lives with them their whole lives and haunts them sometimes as their fault.

I don’t ever want a divorce, so I’ll marry the person I love and I’ll keep communication my number one priority.

What are your views?

30 Day Challenge – Day 18

Day 18 – Your beliefs

I believe in loyalty. Never turn your back on someone you call friend or Family.

I believe in love. Always have and always will.

I believe that you should work hard for the things you want.

You should be good to all people, even if they may seem like that is not what they want from you.

Family is important.

Everyone deserves equal treatment regardless of race, sex, sexual orientation, religious beliefs. We’re all human at the end of the day.

These are the few beliefs that come to mind. What about you? What do you believe in?

30 Day Challenge – Day 17

Day 17 – Highs and Lows of the past year

Low – My ex was starting to be distant for no reason. I suspected that she was interested in someone else, but she denied it and said it was work. Put a pin in that.

Low – I was getting evicted for using a hot plate to cook my food. I never got the lease, but apparently it was in there.

Low – I wasn’t going to graduate because I didn’t have enough done to do so.

Low – Could barely afford to pay rent because my work permit expired. My ex paid the full rent and said not to worry about paying her back. Put a pin in that.

Low – Pin 1. Found out my ex was cheating on me from a mutual friend. I went dark that night. I was at the carnival village (it’s like Coney Island) and after I heard the news, I couldn’t stop drinking and laughing. I broke in the bad way. Pin 2. She wanted the money for rent back after it was all over. She isn’t getting a dime.

High – I had a great time at carnival. The best ever. I spent every day with one of my brothers, Khallid. We had a blast. 

High – I got job offers back to back. I had to turn down people to get the job that I have now and another one that was a pilot study.

High – I got over my ex. Completely. Yea, I don’t like what she did, but I have gotten past it. It’s like ever since she left, only good has happened so far. She was what was keeping me back.

High – I fell in love with me. I left people alone and stuck to myself. I started reading to get sway from life. I started watching new shows to keep me busy.

High – Started back up an old friendship. I was spiraling out of control and she saved me. Everything started with a show we both liked at the time. Didn’t know what was coming next.

High – We became an item. I’ve never been so happy and content in my life. I love her.

High – I’m moving away with her to hopefully better opportunities and a better life.

You can’t have lows without highs. Life balances itself out eventually. This too shall pass.

30 Day Challenge – Day 15

Day 15 – what is your favorite quote?

My favorite quote is

This too shall pass…

I heard it as a child and I held on to it for the rest of my life. In bad times, I think on it and it lets me know that the bad feelings won’t last. In good times, it teaches me to cherish every moment because I never know when the end is going to come.

Take it with you as you go through your days. Let it help you become better and feel better.

[Had to double down today because I missed a day. Shhh. Don’t tell anyone. 🙂 ]

30 Day Challenge – Day 10

Day 10 – Discuss your first love and first kiss.

I am going to break this into parts because my idea of love has changed and evolved over the years.All names have been changed to protect the identity of those involved.

Amber. Kindergarten to Sixth Grade. I don’t know how I knew I loved her, but I always knew that I did. She was bright. There was always an aura around her. She was the first girl that I ever kissed. I know that we were young, but it felt special to me. I used to treat her the way that Steve Urkel would treat Laura Winslow. I used to watch the show every Friday and use the lines and moves on her on Monday. She was the first person that I felt a special way for.

Destiny. Summers from 1998 to 2002. The love that never was. The first girl that hit me with the love at first sight. Her smile hit me and that was it. I was hooked on her. The thing is, I never told her. I never acted on it in the way that I would now. I would just hope that she would be around the following summer. I continued to go back to Dominica until 2005. So, you know what that means. One summer, she moved. In the same week that I got back to the village, I saw her and her family with bags waiting for the bus to the airport. I never saw her again.

Snake. 2004-2005. My only regret. I don’t have any regrets in life, but being with her is one of them. I had my share of bad relationships before, but this is by far the worst. I was madly in love with her for some reason. I know, high school romance is supposed to be fleeting, but I couldn’t help myself at the time. I would have done anything for her and I did. She knew that and maybe that’s why it was so easy for her to take advantage of me. She cheated on me because she knew that I would always take her back each time. Even on my birthday. Yup. No day was sacred. The day I left is the day I took my life back. She taught me that love can hurt horribly at times. I am glad that I took something from it.

Cass. 2007-2011?. Shoulda, Coulda, Woulda. This is the love that I destroyed. I was still broken after snake. I felt that no one could be trusted. I was a wreck. Did so many things that I didn’t have to. I broke her emotionally when all she wanted to do was love me. I wish I could take it all back.

Anne. Current. Real love. This love feels the way that they write about in stories and portray in the movies. There is no forcing or any lies. Everything is going smoothly. I never have a dull day and I always look forward to the next one. She is my inspiration.