30 Day Challenge – Day 28

Day 28 – Something that you miss

I miss my childhood.

It was such a simpler time. The bliss of ignorance was comforting. I didn’t know how cruel the world was. I only knew of being a good child in the eyes of my parents, doing well in school, and having fun when I could.

It was also the time when I had the opportunities to make friends. I mean lasting relationships. I don’t know why it’s so much harder now, but it is.

I miss my mom’s cooking. Very much.

I wish I could go back to my childhood for a week.

What do you miss?

Hanging On Until You Come Back

It feels like you’ve been gone

Foever

I miss you with all of me

I’m doing my best

To keep it together

Until I get to see

You again

I miss you

I miss it all

Smile

Laugh

Eyes

Quirks

Come back to me

This time away is no good

You need to be right here

We both know

You should

Apart

We both departed

Both went our separate ways

It feels like part of me

Has left and gone away

Sometimes I wonder

If my feelings are shared

When I think they’re not

I get a bit scared

I look at your picture

But it’s not the same

Why do I miss you?

Who is to blame?

Being the nerd I am

I counted the number of miles

That separates us

On these two different isles

Thanks to technology

We can keep in touch

Emails, phone calls,

Text messages and such

I’m feeling sad

Guess it’s hard to tell

All day online

All we do is l-o-l

When we meet again

My feelings I’ll subdue

But all I can say now is

I miss you…

Gone

They say distance makes the heart grow fonder
I hope for many reasons that this is true
As we both go our separate ways
We will see what this distance can do

Will it create anticipation of being reunited?
Have us counting down the seconds till we meet?
On each others minds for most of the day
Waiting on that day we once again become complete
Are you going to wait up because I promised to call?
Stay on the phone late trying not to yawn?
Not worried about going to sleep
The sun rises as we speak till dawn

Or will cause a schism better known as a division?
Delete the memories that were made?
Forget all the laughs and the smiles?
Cause all the feelings to slowly fade?
Will it change us from the people we used to be?
Act towards each other in a whole new way?
Our days wew once filled with sunshine;
Will it then turn to skies of gray?

They say distance makes the heart grow fonder
I hope for many reasons that this is true
I don’t know if you will miss me
But I know I’ll be missing you

Reminisce…(Go Pwell)

The title is not English of course. A friend described my situation as that, and I went with it. We all look back at times…sometimes we even get lost in those memories. The past is always a powerful place to visit. Reminisce with me…

Enough is enough I say
But I still keep that song on repeat
I don’t wish to click play
Yet I listed to it once again…lovely beat
Why does it feel like it was made for me?
This artist seems to feel my exact situation
Who let out these personal details?
Causing me such frustration…
Like an abandoned campsite
There is no longer a fire
Like the milk that was left out too long
Things seem to have expired
Now I feel pathetic…

Searching for confirmations that need not be
Wishing that as much as I miss you right now
You can feel the same way about me
Listening to Michael Bolton and Richard Marx
Smooth jazz and those sad blues
Flipping through old photos
Seeing your smile and smiling too
Looking through a sea of tears
Staring at a lost treasure
That should have been treasured
A gem…
That shattered and blew away into the wind
Now I try with great effort to glue back every last shard
Even though inside I know it will be hard

I have no intentions to stop searching
I now know how to measure worth
There is no other on this earth
Who will matter this much again
To me…
Why did it take this long to see?…
When before me lay this light
That always shone so bright
Calling out
Why didn’t I believe?…
When I had the truth
I wish I could blame youth
But right now…that wont do
Now how will I again learn to breathe?…
When my only source of air
Is no longer here…

Again I press play…

Running From a Savior

Day by day I feel you start to slip
I try to tighten my grip…
But it always remains just to loose
Then I realize that you’re fighting
The stranger holding your arm
When I never meant you any harm
In your eyes…
I’m no longer the same…
I try calling your name…
But my voice is an unfamiliar sound
You don’t turn around
I walk away with my head down
What we were is all I ever wanted to be
Now it’s just a memory
You don’t know me…
Not anymore…
I really deplore
The way things are now
I don’t know how
They ever got this way
I thought you would always stay
I hope everything will be alright
I hope I make it through the lonely nights
I hope I don’t shed too many tears
Wishing you were still here
Then I remember
That at the end of my rope
I had almost given up hope
Today…
I let my white horse run away
And I hang up my armor
Because I could no longer save the day
I wish I could go back in time
Back to when you where mine
Back to the time that I…
I felt alive